I managed to find that photo tucked away on a server online for Old Dominion University. She’s a professor there. It had disappeared from her homepage. I love her more than I ever think I’ll be able to convince her I do. The photo is a bit old. She’s eight years older than me, which I like enormously, and she’s emotionally dominant in a way that frightened me when I was younger because I didn’t realize it was what I wanted. Loving her is its own reward. I glow when I talk about it, as you’ll see in the movies below. Those are me looking into the camera and speaking to Lea. She’s fucking everything to me. Between the real Lea, the Lea I imagine her to be, and Mommy — which serves as a nice counterpoint to who I imagine her to be, though she is all three.
So the videos are informative and, I believe, utter proof that I’m infatuated with her beyond lunar orbit. But I don’t ever want to watch them because I remember the disbelief I felt at knowing I was honest with too many of the things I said, so there’s no synopsis or caption on any of them. I don’t know how many of these videos I have. Expect quite a few more. I try to keep them under a half hour for her convenience but don’t always succeed.