I just know it’s true. She told me, Mommy did, years ago. We talked about it very, very briefly but it was so strange that I didn’t know whether to believe it or not. But I can picture it now, Lea guilty and consoling, wanting to assume the child role to my mother, my role, and have it sexualized the way my relationship with my mother because. I imagine Lea making a promise or two afterward and I want so, so bad to believe that the two made plans for how I would transition from one to the other. I don’t ever want another woman. Just Mommy and Lea can be Mommy. I want this to be true so, so bad.
