I feel it’s horribly presumptuous for me to say some of these things but I’m hoping it actually isn’t. I getting a heavy sense that Lea didn’t respond to an email I sent her to test my sanity. I hope that’s the reason. I outline my concerns and take on things in this video. There are enough videos on this site that have me channeling professions of love for an hour on end. Timing with an exceptionally promising job opportunity and and a regrettable mishap with the mute button and the fallout of it that I still simply don’t understand, messages on a YouTube stream that reeked of pain regarding my not having money and me wanting to use her for it and other nastiness.
I suspect Mistress Lea has more money than I’ll ever have. My thought in contacting her was that I still have nearly five figures in the bank and, with the money from the trust fund, could pay for my share of lunches or even dates, waiting patiently at whatever line she wanted to draw. My prediction is that Mistress would find my love so intoxicating that, money not being an issue for her, would urge me to find something parttime or quit all together and play Hausfrau, available to her during the day. I’d settle for an interest-free loan for breast implants, should we go that route.
Something tells me the real issue for Mistress Lea is that she’s worried she’ll want take up the reins of my life with her, that she won’t be at ease with my doting devotion, affection, attentiveness, and pretty words. She’ll want to guide me into being something I am not at present. And I think she fears conflict here. There would a healthy adversarial bent to it, but of course I would hope she would win, leave hints, and likely just plain hand it to her if she put in the work. It’s part of my charm.
